Putamanas

Dear..........

To me many days have passed by, with you some times and most of the time without you. When I was with you, I had fear of loosing, when you are away, I was feared of loosing my self. Why didn't death come to me when the day you left, and Why did you leave me with only memories of you...........................

I did cry, I did lie, I did die............ Killing my self was so hard on me. I would be more happy if you had done that to me, instead of leaving me in this world to kill my self. How could you do that, when all I said was that "I love you.............................................. "

Now, I don't have the tears left in my eyes to cry, I need not lie, and I cannot think of death, leaving is not too tough now a days. I just can live and also be happy. But to be back to this life, there was one loud cry, one big lie and once self sacrifice..................

Today, here I stand with peace, happy and love. This day I have the one, who loves me a lot, probably more than I loved you, This time I have all the faces for the one I love to. I have you and more than that, then why did I kill my self......................

Here I'm again in agony, for killing the one who is much required for my love. for crying the last cheer which is required for my heart, for telling the lies required to make around happy. Is this all you gave it to me, You have left me without my self...............

Thanks............... All that lasts, never ends....................