Friday, April 15, 2005
"or"
The "or" was never answered, I don't know why in this world, the "or" factor remains unanswered for a long time.
I got to know by my friend that the days were pretty not going so smooth when you got your job. I expected you to be very happy and enjoying. No I did not see that excitement in you. Neither you were very eager to tell that you had got a job, after struggling for more than a Year. Was the job not worth it "or" the fact of I was not with u.
When I called you up after a week you got your offer, you were surprised. The surprise was just there !. Things was just starting a bit smoother then. I started calling you up more often. Just like to have your mood set right to this situation. I was not surprised by your intention of your mood "The hatred against guys". ( Well It did not take too much time for you to consider not all are like that, or at least I was not one of them. ) I don't know why didn't you show me that haltered you had. Is it that you didn't want to hurt me "or" you liked me.
Days started slowly, with good words to speak when u called. I was very much surprised by not seeing any response from your side, when I first called you sweety. Then the greeting continued with always the most sweetest word " Sweety". Ya sweety tell me, weren't you surprised by my greeting "or" were you expecting it from me much before.
The calls started up to meetings. We met often than required. Those days of going to temple together. It was great and more than that the corner house. I don't remember how many times you have paid for me. I feel you wouldn't mind it for paying for me. More than every place I like the coffee day. I enjoyed the uncertainty of your dad being there for a movement. The topics started with long walk from the temple to near your place, the long chat that we did how people think about each other. What made your life change, what's good in me. and more and more. When the more I talked with you I was missing you a lot the next day. Then I responded with the great word "I miss u", you know how it feels when I tell it. You never objected me for telling this word, Is it because you liked it "or" were u missing me also.
Things passed very slowly, when we started speaking about the marriage. Well u had already had met one and he rejected it after a month. Well this was why you hated the guys isn't it ? The Next time you had been to meet a guy to marry, you did not like him. I never asked you about this, but you told me that you did not liked him. Even then this happened once ageing, neither you liked him also. Is it that you did not like them "or" was it that you loved me ?
Well one day you called me up, and informed that a guy has proposed u for a marriage. You were not happy with that. Then the next day you called me up and informed me that all guys are like that. I was not surprised by your words. Well on the course of the same talk you asked me do you have the same intension. Well I was not sure of what to answer, should I say no "or" should I say I like u.
When I had been to a temple where u had prayed for your marriage to get soon. You bought me a gift. It meant a lot to me. I was really happy about your small gift. It was something great to me. Still I don't know why I was happy about it a lot, Is it that I was happy because you bought it for me "or" I was liking you a lot.
Days was not too long when u started stop meeting and pushing our meeting for next day or week, and then we never met. Then I got to know that you had accepted an offer from a guy to get married. But why didn't to tell it early, Is that you didn't want to hurt me "or" were to angry on me, because of not proposing you.
Just after a week of your marriage, I had been to the same plays near the temple, "Alone" and for a week. I was just lost in the jungle to find my self what was I doing. It was sure that I was not thinking much of you. But I never could understand my self in that stage. I was surprised by my decision to stay alone in the jungle. Did I really like that loneliness "or" I was too late to know that I loved U?
More over all this.. I don't know why didn't you propose me all the days,
Didn't you loved me "or" ...........
I got to know by my friend that the days were pretty not going so smooth when you got your job. I expected you to be very happy and enjoying. No I did not see that excitement in you. Neither you were very eager to tell that you had got a job, after struggling for more than a Year. Was the job not worth it "or" the fact of I was not with u.
When I called you up after a week you got your offer, you were surprised. The surprise was just there !. Things was just starting a bit smoother then. I started calling you up more often. Just like to have your mood set right to this situation. I was not surprised by your intention of your mood "The hatred against guys". ( Well It did not take too much time for you to consider not all are like that, or at least I was not one of them. ) I don't know why didn't you show me that haltered you had. Is it that you didn't want to hurt me "or" you liked me.
Days started slowly, with good words to speak when u called. I was very much surprised by not seeing any response from your side, when I first called you sweety. Then the greeting continued with always the most sweetest word " Sweety". Ya sweety tell me, weren't you surprised by my greeting "or" were you expecting it from me much before.
The calls started up to meetings. We met often than required. Those days of going to temple together. It was great and more than that the corner house. I don't remember how many times you have paid for me. I feel you wouldn't mind it for paying for me. More than every place I like the coffee day. I enjoyed the uncertainty of your dad being there for a movement. The topics started with long walk from the temple to near your place, the long chat that we did how people think about each other. What made your life change, what's good in me. and more and more. When the more I talked with you I was missing you a lot the next day. Then I responded with the great word "I miss u", you know how it feels when I tell it. You never objected me for telling this word, Is it because you liked it "or" were u missing me also.
Things passed very slowly, when we started speaking about the marriage. Well u had already had met one and he rejected it after a month. Well this was why you hated the guys isn't it ? The Next time you had been to meet a guy to marry, you did not like him. I never asked you about this, but you told me that you did not liked him. Even then this happened once ageing, neither you liked him also. Is it that you did not like them "or" was it that you loved me ?
Well one day you called me up, and informed that a guy has proposed u for a marriage. You were not happy with that. Then the next day you called me up and informed me that all guys are like that. I was not surprised by your words. Well on the course of the same talk you asked me do you have the same intension. Well I was not sure of what to answer, should I say no "or" should I say I like u.
When I had been to a temple where u had prayed for your marriage to get soon. You bought me a gift. It meant a lot to me. I was really happy about your small gift. It was something great to me. Still I don't know why I was happy about it a lot, Is it that I was happy because you bought it for me "or" I was liking you a lot.
Days was not too long when u started stop meeting and pushing our meeting for next day or week, and then we never met. Then I got to know that you had accepted an offer from a guy to get married. But why didn't to tell it early, Is that you didn't want to hurt me "or" were to angry on me, because of not proposing you.
Just after a week of your marriage, I had been to the same plays near the temple, "Alone" and for a week. I was just lost in the jungle to find my self what was I doing. It was sure that I was not thinking much of you. But I never could understand my self in that stage. I was surprised by my decision to stay alone in the jungle. Did I really like that loneliness "or" I was too late to know that I loved U?
More over all this.. I don't know why didn't you propose me all the days,
Didn't you loved me "or" ...........
# posted by Santosh Rao @ 2:14 AM 
